Sunday, November 29, 2009

i cast u out!

check out khey jou's display pic on msn

lol so farney lar!

so jeewang@jiwang talked about faith without deeds is dead
that got me thinking for awhile.
why is it useless? shouldn't having faith be enough, by just believing
so why the actions or deeds

then it came to me,
but by faith they all did something.
to affirm that it was faith they had

i guess that's the difference between faith and blindly believing?

it's like someone telling u that the char siew pao in connaught is the best.
now u know it, and u actually believe it and think that the char siew pao in connaught will be the best.
but u won't know what u actually had in that char siew pao until u went there urself to get it, it shows that u really believed it and even did something, to prove that u believed: u bought that char siew pao. so it shows that u actually had faith in that char siew pao

cz if u didnt buy that char siew pao, it would just be a thought or something u believed in and nothing more right?

james 2:22-his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did

because having faith is so much more that that.
and also having faith not for results but in Him.

Sunday, November 15, 2009

to walk on water

i dunoohhh

i don't know whether i should go 4 yrs straight to perth or do a 1 year twinning to uk.

guess im kindof scared to go to perth after all, or im afraid that im not ready? sigh i don't know..

im thinking maybe it's the security i get here. the safe comfortable feeling, knowing how everything here works and all. and friends. yea biggest part of that
hving left calvary and all, we hug on to every chance of stability or comfort. and it's seriously great to find security in another group of ppl. having formed stable friendships in just 3 months?. and i mean really really stable ones.

i dont even think that i had anything like this in the past few years. where u actually feel wanted and loved
where u actually know that the stuff u had and shared with the other person will still be there the next week.
or u actually know that they are gonna talk to you
i guess it's like you don't have to be in doubt or have the insecure feeling, thinking everytime u walk into the place whether this person or that person will talk to you or whether they will choose to ignore you this time, whether the stuff u had or shared with them will last a week.
whether that friendship we had, did it last a week?

sometime a few months back we stopped pretending to guess, because that guessing thing stopped. because at one point we didn't need to guess anymore because we actually know this time round

and how can i leave this? now that i've found it

don't know whether im strong enough to leave the security i've found here
sigh.. but u never know what He has in store for you
have a feeling that i need to go over, to take that step of faith and surrender all to Him

sigh but i really don't have the guts to walk on water
but then u will never change right?

sometimes it's just so hard to do the stuff You want to do u know??? rah

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

i know!! i think.., i think i know!

am spending the remaining of the month at my aunt's law firm thing, heh no she is not the lawyer. she's the secretary =) and a very stressed out one too.

sigh i shall never be able to work in an office.
seriously, paperwork and wenly don't go together, could never and can never.
i tried.. really!
and i think being organized is a talent.
one i obviously do not have =D

anyway so that has narrowed down my choices of what i i think i shall do in the future.
no desk jobs! hia hia
no sitting at the desk counting, typing, photostatting, email-ing, faxing, printing, etc

so no business, cz ur gonna have to type proposal after proposal right? and all the faxing la, photostatting

and no accounting, that is the most stressed out desk job, ever!

so er what's left is science? but wenly just passed her chemistry with 300/600, praise the Lord! =)

so it's mostly archi? maybe law, maybe not.. what if i cannot read that much?? >.<
* "but think of the money u will make!", says the little voice in her head *

sigh.. at least it's down to two or three.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

now im connected! =D

YES I FINALLY GOT MY SIM BACK!! =))))

let the sms marathon begin! =)

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

were we?

What grace divine what selflessness
That Christ would bear the weight
Our proof is scarred on hands that bled
That we were worth every nail

were we really?
it is amazing that even after He knows what we will do in the future,
no matter how many times we've hurt Him or how many times we've broken his heart
we can still come back and know that His love will still be there for us
how unworthy we really are
to be loved like that
by His everlasting love

and it is not just love we get,
it is also His faith in us, to have faith in Him; His trust in us, to trust Him.

to even get to call Him my Father, my friend
and to know that nothing can take this away from us. nothing in the world
For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
romans 8:38-39

who are we to deserve this?

Sunday, October 18, 2009

an update! :D

and now i miss the cold air! heh. it felt weird sweating for the first few days here lol, just got used to it.

and so i hid myself from the face of the world for a week to er think and unwind
in other words i was just lazy. and i saw enough new faces to last me another few weeks lol
it was kindof scary heh

oh and i left my simcard in aus.. >.< "soo you lah!" according to my friend, and i have to agree. sigh forced to "fast" my hp for a month or so. it felt really weird at first, being disconnected to the world, but then i got used to it after a week, and was like :" why did i even need a hp back then ??" haha now i dont have to worry about getting mugged, getting mugged again, dropping my hp in the toilet or whether it has enough batt to last me the day. and i think it feels good, being disconnected from the world, having an excuse not to "catch up" after coming back. heh hopefully this feeling will last for awhile longer, at least until my dad has time to get me a new sim lol oh and i have this! :))))
my uncle bought it from perth. now i have sth to do!! :D am starting to get bored
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so here are two random pics of mine :) just to lengthen this post

some random street in perth

i took this cool cool cloud pic! hahah have never seen them clouds like that before

now that one of my best friends has a gf(finally), i can hereby announce that I OFFICIALLY LOST MY KEPONG KAKI! TT

heheh but yea am super duper happy for u! haha but i haven't told her yet, but by the time u read this i probably will be laughing with her somewhere in jln ipoh :D

am waiting for alicia to send me a msg saying that we shall go out for 5oo days of summer tomoro. heh hopefully zayani will be able to excuse herself from her royal duties and come along with us :)

sigh but kirly's phone is upstairs with her.. sigh that means i will have to go get it.
rah! this is why u need ur own phone. eh no, ur own sim heh yea sometimes it's annoyingly irritating not to have ur phone/sim with u

gosh now i know how ppl feel right now when they cannot get u..


lol i think i've had enough of being disconnected from the world...


poor u took a one way trip, i think i miss you now..


I WANT MY SIM BACK! .... >.<

Wednesday, August 26, 2009

a day at kl hilton :D

and so we took the Canadians shopping at mid valley..

zhi lynn with her walls ice cream advert winning smile :D
kirly and her beloved coconut
jonathan, nicole, zhi cheng, wenly, kirly, zhi lynn, and xiang lim
the bathroom was nice!
the poolside lounge
the pool!nicole, wenly, michael, xiang lim, zhi cheng, zhi lynn and kirly :Dsplash!the happy people
more happy people
the "lifeguards", i dont think the asistant knows how to swim tho. haha!

kirly chillin

drinking the fruit smoothies that costs like 19rm each!! sigh
one particular orange one tasted horrible, i think it had celery in it. but zhi lynn liked it. oh well, that explains her weight. haha
this vry vry shy blackbelt boy

kirly and her dragon fruit drink. at least that's what we think it is
sunseton the way up to the room nyahiahia

watched monsters inc and ordered domino's while nicole put michael to bed. about time to cz he started throwing paper aeroplanes at us. hahah! he taught a young ang moh kid in the pool to kick the water and splash people. bad influence, says nicole lol!
but he is one super cute kid! reminds me abit of ken hu tho, haha.

am super tired right now lol even after waking up at like 11.30???
have to find a sarong to wear this fri. and will have to learn how to tie a tudung for the malaysian night. what do mamak people wear anyway?!??!

sigh i wanted to be the pm's wife. that would be so much easier right? haha oh well
i shall go google mamak outfits now. tata!

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

of danny guglielmucci and brokenness

danny guglielmucci came to sib to preach!!!

i didnt quite hear them say his name at first, but when he started talking about how he overcame his brokenness and how his son lied about having cancer.. and suddenly i sat up n realized HEY THIS IS DANNY GUGLIELMUCCI!!!!

i didnt bring my bible, brought the bible in the hp. though, so i couldnt bring myself to get him to sign on my hp. i wanted him to sign my bible!!! the blue one!!! lesson learned.

and the sermon that morning was awesome. ps danny talked about his brokenness and how He uses our brokenness to make us unshakable.
and in Him we will always be whole.
and i realized that it was the answer all long to the questions i was asking Him all the months. why did u let this happen to us? why must it be us? why not another house?
and it was like He smacked His answers right at my face that morning at 8.30!!
i was like O.O
is was amazing.
one word: awesome!!!

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

-sweetly broken by jeremy riddle

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

camp was fun! heh really
after camp i ended up with a bunch of new friends in sib and a cell group! =)
it was really a extend ur limits kindof camp
especially the making friends part. its the first time i went to a church camp without the ppl i grew up with

lol i realized how much i missed calvary youth during those 3 days and 2 nights. heh missed the laughter of kimberly la, the commanding voice of vivian! lol how she used to get ready all the stuff and tell us what to do with the computer etc. and elyse! that woman, haha i missed all the crap that comes out from her mouth. and sandy! those walks to shell station to get junk to much on while waiting for our parents. and the cheras gang? daniel, caleb, yuen chun, victoria rebekah, valerie :) and tabby, annabiao and amanda! heh that funny thing. i missed the naughty shermaine too!
sigh and melissa, my bff in church. lol with all her funny bf stories. i miss you! :(

i miss those familiar faces, the comfort of knowing every corner of the church and ppl there.
i didn't realize how important that feeling was until recently, when i was put into a place where suwen n i only knew each other. haha it was kindof scary, and i felt very very insecure. but i found out the ppl were actually really really nice. and genuine.

and that was the whole point of going to camp i guess, i really learnt how to stretch my boundaries, get out of my comfort zone and it didn't fell good one bit at first.
like their theme expanding ur limits. i think mine got expanded, alot.

"Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes." -Isaiah 54:2
and there were the funny moments in camp, the two visiting rats in dorm 2, the whole dorm full of girls were screaming weh. haha imagine 1 screaming girl, multiply the volume by 10 and multiply the number of girls by 20-30, you'll get what i mean. haha and my "stunt" as stephanie calls it.
and so i met drama queen stephanie, elyse-like- siew kuan, nice nice clara and rachel, yinmun's older sister rachel thong! lol , wei chin lookalike -melody she sings too!, and shin yin my cell leader! oh and melissa hehe who reminds me of kimberly in a way.

found out you really gain alot, when u choose to let Him take over and take you over the your limit, to rely on Him for He has no limits.


i miss you ppl!!
from sunday schools to youth. heh


the gang
haha! all the 17 yr old girls
and again!

the youth concerts!

valeris, tsufei, melissa and stephanie

melissa and pamela
the whole group now haha lots of diff from when we were 15???

=)

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

balloons! and the sea

the nicer ones are in the dslr. sigh will get them tomoro




:)

kuantan was awesome!
hehe had nice carnivals and i even did the sand art thing
the one u peel off the sticker and pour coloured sand onto the thing
super fun
and it was FREE
hehe paid by shuwei's dad's company
so we had free basketball shooting games, dunking games
even hand tattoo and i had a doraemon! hehe
and they got sheila majid to sing for half an hour, guess how much they paid her..

30K!!!!! for only half an hour.. gosh..

i should seriously think of becoming a singer

and the 15 mins of fireworks display
it was super =)
shall post more pics of the Hawaiian night when i get that dslr
and the beach pics! yes they modeled for me

had fun with the balloons and the sea

Monday, July 20, 2009

what we all need these days

is a little faith :)

heb11:1-Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

ps kenneth said: faith is not getting what you wish for, but it should be what you wish for.

sigh, so true.
but it is so difficult to believe what you don't see, to hope for the things that have yet to come
and when we just have it in our grasp, we struggle to keep it and not let it go yet again.

and when it is all over here, we can say
2 timothy 4:7- I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.


hey you! keep that faith
heb 12: 1-let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

Friday, July 17, 2009

ramblings


It's like daylight at midnight

It's my favorite dream

Where nothing's really as it seems.

Don't wake me just take me

Take my hand and I'll believe.



i will believe- nichole nordeman

Monday, July 13, 2009

home sweet home

sigh after being with the outside world for sooo many days...
it is about time i confine myself at home. haha am tired of seeing so many faces at once
it kindoff scares me now. >.<

heheh this is so funny

shuwei at the place we were working

we nearly killed mr lim when we told jui wan zhe about ARCE. haha

sigh



green day-21 guns
Do you know what's worth fighting for
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?
Does the pain weigh out the pride
And you look for a place to hide?
Did someone break your heart inside?
You're in ruins

One, 21 guns
Lay down your arms
Give up the fight
One, 21 guns
Throw up your arms into the sky,
You and I

When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
And the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last
You're in ruins

Did you try to live on your own
When you burned down the house and home?
Did you stand too close to the fire
Like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone?

When it's time to live and let die
And you can't get another try
Something inside this heart has died
You're in ruins


sigh i shall go read my jodi picoults now. eh no not mine, emilia's.
shall buy breakfast at tiffany's soon haha when im ready to venture out of my house.
that book is just so good i have to have it :)
hmm, maybe i shall go out tomorrow then. heh

Saturday, July 11, 2009

pay day pay day pay day

shuwei and i just did the impossible.
5 and a half days selling houses in puchong, bandar puteri
SO SIEN WEHHHH
so to entertain ourselves, we brought books, LOTs and LOTS of books
and pillows, for our poor asses

we spent our days looking up from our books to like 5-6 ppl a day
what questions did they ask? :
Q: eh what room is this ah?
ANs: its a utility room like a maid's room, u can use it to put ur stuff
Q: then where do i put my maid?!?!?!?
Ans: err, u can put her in the guest room
Q: then where do i put my guest?!?!?!??!

LOLLLLL haiyoyo how i know u la uncle, haha that convo was btwn shuwei and an uncle

Q: wah! so expensive eh
Ans: errr.. its a guarded community, got lake la, bball court la, need card to go in wan.
Q: wah its lease hold summore so expensive !! u know ah the puchong one also cheaper than this, and that is THE ONE!
ANs: aiya when this is finished it shall be THE ONE!
Q: still so expensive! puchong that one ah.. bla bla bla
(and he left grumbling)

and when jui wan zhe took us to the site, we found out that the storeroom is SUPER BIG! haha so shuwei had an answer for the uncle before:
Ans: u can put ur maid in the storeroom! hahaha! or if u have like 2 guests, the storeroom is big enough for one! hahah u can put him there LOLL

and then how can i forget that weird/perverted guy:
(referring to the model)
Q: how come this side and this side not the same ah?!?!
Ans: the whole thing is a semi d.. -.-"""

HE DIDNT EVEN KNOW WHAT A SEMI D WAS!!!! O.O
that poor thing

and before he left:
Q: eh u guys wana work part time?
Ans: how much? and do what ?
Q: orh just filling out forms, i work for citibank u see, (takes out a name card, crosses out the person's name and fills in his name)

shuwei and i were like O.O

then he went on:
oh i can fetch u to my office, my office is in my house
!!!!!!!!
WHAT ON EARTH! aiyoyo who do u think we are??? little kids ah? we are not that stupid to be bluffed by u ok

then shuwei kicked my leg, i looked up from the book and laughed out loud, couldnt tahan ady, i think he must have seen that "leg move" and he left
haha! the nerve to ask us to his house to work????

shall be waiting patiently for my well earned money now :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

confuzzled


:S

Saturday, June 27, 2009

of happy endings, and 1 sad one

it was prom!! haha i dont have the pics with me now, well cept a few "after prom" ones
the rest is in shuwei's cam which i didnt bring back with me

wenly and naderlie :)

again!

and again! haha i just realized the only 3 pics of yday was all with nathalie :)
as for the rest, fb is just one click away

so we thought we were gonna be hotstuff on fb the next day, but guess what,
while we just went to bed at 6, shireen's mom came barging in the room at 7 shouting: EH!! MICHAEL JACKSON DIEDED!!!!
O.O
HOW CAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!?!??!?!??!??!??!

TTTTTTTT
the first "in" song we all knew was: we are the world
i rmb every cny all us cousins will form a circle and hold hands and sing that "in" song

haha i rmb how BIG hun zhe teng zhe and jin zhe 'S LOVE for michael jackson was.
they even had this gigantic poster of him on the wall, in jin zhe's bedroom
n i rmb asking : jin zhe, this michael jackson is girl or boy??? LOLLL
when i was like five??
HAHAHHA and her reply was: what do u think?? -.-"
I really didnt know at that time!!

sigh he shall be dearly missed

Sunday, June 21, 2009

change

trying to.. trying really really hard to.
sigh really dont want it,
but i guess we cannot avoid it anymore
no point hiding from it,
cause its gonna come, either way
we still have to i guess

so? what are we waiting for?
am ready when You are ready

bring it on

Thursday, June 18, 2009

the end!!

its the end of college life for us. haha half sad tho, but prom is nxt week! haha thinking about the shopping we are gonna do, haha intense shopping and gan-fei-ing makes me happy :)

whats life after coll? haha we shall just wait and see what happens. sigh the end, lol brings the jason reeves song in my head. such a scary place, haha but i guess its all about moving on.


The end
is such a scary place to start
Everything is torn apart
I don't know where to go from here

In the end
there's no reason to pretend
I know you won't be back again
I gotta find a way from here

I don't know where I'll fall down but I'm sure to hit the ground

'Cause it's not over 'til it's over
Every ending's a new beginning
One more chance to get it right
One more chance to get it wrong

It's not over 'til it's over
Sometimes nowhere leads to somewhere and it all starts again
It all starts again in the end

And it's such a scary place to be
Everything is in between
I don't know where to go from here

And in the end
I see it's all up to me to figure out where I should be
I'm gonna find a way from here

-jason reeves <3

Monday, May 25, 2009

help me walk on water.

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

-hebrews 11:1

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

finals and bees

shall nt be coming back till end of the month i think, when we have a 2 week break.
sigh shall start studying now, lol i know its a little bit too late. haha
but oh well, better late than never.
having physics prac later around 6pm.
kindof looking forward to it, heh
shall be walking on water this whole month! haha so catch me if i fall yea *winks up*

oh yea before i go. BEES HAVE INVADED MY HOUSE!!!
sigh more like they have found MY ROOM to their liking. grah! of all places.
they came, they saw, and the conquered.. TT
i didnt dare to venture out from my parent's room the whole morning, until i heard my granpa coming up the stairs to wake me up i guess

i used to think man's greatest invention is the aircon,
well now i think man's greatest invention is insecticide, haha

i hope they all find a better place to move their nest or sth. urgh the feeling that they made their nest near my teddy bear or sth. MAYBE ON MY TEDDY BEAR!!! GRAH!

exams and bees,... what a combination for the week.. >.<

Friday, May 1, 2009

krispy kreme doughnuts!

i had mine!! :D


they are finally here in malaysia! go get urs today! haha at times square.
its super duper sweet by the way, just like the ones i had in aus, no difference. it's like they dumped one whole bucket of sugar for the icing. haha but the bread is super nice. :)

go try go try!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

blackmail !!

this is cookie! everyone say hi cookie!

cookie belongs to some cousin of mine. yea the one with the brain comparable to the size of a nut! hia hia. i bet u miss cookie already! :)
to ensure his safety from JOY,
...
...
...





U BETTER GET ME AN ITOUCH OR AN IPOD IF UR FEELING POOR.


IF NOT.....









BYE BYE COOKIE!!!

Monday, April 20, 2009

the day we nearly dieded

yes today is the day i shall forever remember.. not! most likely the day i wish to forget.

saw a terrible accident at our side of the road. and it wasn't even the car on our lane. it was the car at the opposite lane! he rammed a pole, i saw the whole thing kemek lying on the floor u know!! and the car in the ditch nearby at our side of the road. the poor person, a proton saga u know.. then saw like 9866456413 motorbikes parked along the side of the road, and a gazillion more people helping the injured.

shuwei and i were like wahhh why so jam wan?? then she said now is the time to "bat"
and so we looked out the window, she slowed down and all to get a better view. i didnt dare to look at the injured person tho, who knows how much blood will be pouring down the face or sth. ughh

then when we nearly reached home, shuwei was like: WAHH WENLY !!! GD THING WE CAME HOME LATE!!! OMG OMG OMG!! THAT COULDVE BEEN US!!!!

for those of u who have watched the curious case of benjamin button, IT WAS EXACTLY LIKE THAT!! except in our case, it wouldnt be "if only", it would be "good thing"

good thing we had chem prac trial today so we left later than usual,
good thing i broke the measuring cylinder,
good thing i did some careless mistakes and spent some time mourning over the lost marks before i left,
good thing shuwei talked for like 5 minutes on the phone and refused to move from her spot even tho i tried so hard to make her budge,
good thing we had a walking speed of some snail or sth.
and most of all,
THANK YOU LORD!!! phewww

if not that would have been us in the ditch with that saga.

if we were just a few minutes faster, caught the first bus, rushed to the lift, didnt wash our conical flasks and beakers, if kana hadnt had our practical today,
that couldve been us!!
wah good thing kana decided to have chem prac trials today!! she practically saved our lives!!! and to think i hated her with my life! that shall change now.
lol talk about strangers being angels.

Monday, April 13, 2009

on friday around 10pm, wenly did the noblest thing ever! she saved like 10 ppl at one shot and even risked her life while doing it.

SHE DONATED BLOOD!!
gah! till now i can still feel them inserting that humongous needle in my arm. and YESSS it hurts.. stupid nurses who told me that it wont hurt as much as that that first prick of the needle when they tested my blood group, liars!!! TT . my vein went bengkak for like a day.

but the pain of the big big needle was NOTHING like THE PAIN when they pulled the strap of that thing (the one u use to take ur blood pressure and heartbeat) and conveniantly KAPEKED MY SKIN IN THE INNER SIDE OF MY UPPER ARM!!!!!!!! TT around 10cm of it i tell u! that was the ULTIMATE one i tell u. my eyes clouded immediatly and i coudnt even shout properly. adoih. yelped at them to take it out but it took them like 5 whole minutes to get the thing done properly. kapeked it again while adjusting it. TT its like someone pinching one whole row of ur skin, try that!

they managed to take one bag, after forever, maybe its my low blood pressure lol, you ppl shouldve seen shuwei's wan.

went back to primary school right after that. haha teacher suvina still remembers us all! and my standard 3 teacher! chatted with them for like 3 hrs?? she even bought us vitagen :D

took lrt to klcc for pc fair after that, was supposed to go for the easter thing. sigh but it was sooo far :(
sold some stuff tho. haha mp3s and mp4s. shukim and ivy managed to sell psps! haha. but it was fun la working there with all the cousins. lol how we had to tahan till like 4pm justto eat lunch, and the way we ate! haha like starved caveman or sth. and kx was the star salesperson! haha 8 mp3s on the first day!

we stood for soooo long until we had to half crawl our way back home. haha no im not joking.

oh and on sunday we went to ACTS for easter service! and it was awesome (:
its like we were refugees but we found a home. lol but yea. told some of my friends and they are cominggg!!! haha. i hope more of them will come, and see for themselves, the truth is out there! haha!

sigh gtg do my bio now. while waiting for that miss esther lim who just turned 19 a few days ago to reply my txts. -.-"