oh the wonderful cross
bids me come and die
and find that i
may truly live

For the first time, has been too long.

Exhausted ducts in the eyes

But then again

Such a good sleep in a long long time
Plus that almost 5 hr nap

I need apples

cant. wait. to. feel. the. sun. on. my. back. again. :)

sometimes it takes one insane person to keep you sane.

thanks for being that insane person, idiot.

Lord u seriously must know the many times i wanted to give up

the many times i stood at roads thinking why am i still fighting for

the many times i wanted to just end everything,

where i blocked your voice

read books to silence my thoughts

it is memories that keeps us alive sometimes

memories that serve as a gentle reminder

the reason we are constantly fighting to live.

when you are once again reminded that the reason is not you

but for the creator

and for what he has done.

the reason why we hold on so dearly to some memories

remember?

when bad things happen,

we remember the good things

Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you endured in a great conflict full of suffering; so do not throw away your confidence in the Lord.

-hebrews 10

so we will not let go of our faith in Him, because of His faith in us;

we will love, because He first loved

it's been awhile now

weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning

psalm 30:5

and i will try,

to fix you

where?

Billy Graham; I'm reminded today of Albert Einstein, the great physicist who has been honored by Time magazine as the Man of the Century. Einstein was once traveling from Princeton on a train when the conductor came down the aisle, punching the tickets of every passenger. When he came to Einstein, Einstein reached in his vest pocket. He couldn't find his ticket, so he reached in his trouser pockets. It wasn't there, so he looked in his briefcase but couldn't find it. Then he looked in the seat beside him. He still couldn't find it.

The conductor said, "Dr. Einstein, I know who you are. We all know who you are. I'm sure you bought a ticket. Don't worry about it." Einstein nodded appreciatively. The conductor continued down the aisle punching tickets. As he was ready to move to the next car, he turned around and saw the great physicist down on his hands and knees looking under his seat for his ticket.

The conductor rushed back and said, "Dr. Einstein, Dr. Einstein, don't worry, I know who you are. No problem. You don't need a ticket. I'm sure you bought one."

Einstein looked at him and said, "Young man, I too, know who I am. What I don't know is where I'm going."

Having said that Billy Graham continued, "See the suit I'm wearing; it's a brand new suit. My wife, my children, and my grandchildren are telling me I've gotten a little slovenly in my old age. I used to be a bit more fastidious. So I went out and bought a new suit for this luncheon and one more occasion.

"You know what that occasion is? This is the suit in which I'll be buried. But when you hear I'm dead, I don't want you to immediately remember the suit I'm wearing. I want you to remember this: I not only know who I am ... I also know where I'm going."

>:)

bad days. they come in a package these days.

it is days like these where we block him out when we need him the most.

some things we can never face alone.

but we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us.

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed;

perplexed, but not in despair;

persecuted, but not abandoned;

struck down, but not destroyed

2 Cor 4:7-9

so, noh!

i shall not die

>:)

had so much lamb and awesome prawn today

the prawn was ze bomb i tell u.

and so was the lamb

basically everything

cept the veggie

heh!

hannatan finished half a tin of the tyre keropok i brought for her

she is worse than me i tell u, lolll

i bet u she has finished like half the choki choki too by now

and her parents gave me angpow! whee! bless them

i hope we get into cardiff together

so we can stay for another year togetherrrrrrr

so fun i tell u

like seriously

she thinks im the entertainment

but i tell u,

she is the real clown

i miss those times where i slept in her room

so fun! it was like having a sister again, but a less annoying one. lol

we'd talk for hours, then watch shows, and listen to emo songs for hours

she likes the fray too!

been playing the same old songs since year 1

time fliesssssss!

so happy to be back, really

and i really shouldve tapao-ed some prawns

i think uk people will faint if they ever see the size of our king prawns loll