to walk on water

i dunoohhh

i don't know whether i should go 4 yrs straight to perth or do a 1 year twinning to uk.

guess im kindof scared to go to perth after all, or im afraid that im not ready? sigh i don't know..

im thinking maybe it's the security i get here. the safe comfortable feeling, knowing how everything here works and all. and friends. yea biggest part of that
hving left calvary and all, we hug on to every chance of stability or comfort. and it's seriously great to find security in another group of ppl. having formed stable friendships in just 3 months?. and i mean really really stable ones.

i dont even think that i had anything like this in the past few years. where u actually feel wanted and loved
where u actually know that the stuff u had and shared with the other person will still be there the next week.
or u actually know that they are gonna talk to you
i guess it's like you don't have to be in doubt or have the insecure feeling, thinking everytime u walk into the place whether this person or that person will talk to you or whether they will choose to ignore you this time, whether the stuff u had or shared with them will last a week.
whether that friendship we had, did it last a week?

sometime a few months back we stopped pretending to guess, because that guessing thing stopped. because at one point we didn't need to guess anymore because we actually know this time round

and how can i leave this? now that i've found it

don't know whether im strong enough to leave the security i've found here
sigh.. but u never know what He has in store for you
have a feeling that i need to go over, to take that step of faith and surrender all to Him

sigh but i really don't have the guts to walk on water
but then u will never change right?

sometimes it's just so hard to do the stuff You want to do u know??? rah

of snail speed, and adorabell/e

the internet is superrr slowww.

so slow that my msn keeps disconnecting, my restaurant city jams up, and worse my house download speed is at 0kb/s.. -.-

u wait till i become a lawyer i shall sue u. haha how i wish.

with this sucky connection thats why no pics la.. -.-"

the internet is dying on me, the phone is dying on me, sigh. we need some life here hey!

just told tsufei a few days ago if only God has email, then maybe He can answer us more frequently.

sigh sometimes i think He uses tmnet streamyx too.. -.-

on a lighter note,
my aunt's law firm has decided to pay me! =))))
so might not be working at ikea after all
maybe they will be nice enough to write some reference letter or sign some important stuff for me in the future =D

so maybe all the photostatting paid off after all.

so after my paycheck we shall all go kepong and eat bak kut teh wokeh? =D
or gei tuck sek
or maybe steamboat
so make urself free wokeh lah yuan hann aka joshua travis lah -.-
what a long name weh and since when did u get urself a middle name?!

oh talking about names, lemme tell u the funniest name i've ever heard
i heard it when i went to alicia's law college for trial
and the name was...


ADORABELLE!!
LOLLL

wait i need to laugh.





okok *breathes*

WHAT KINDOF NAME IS THAT WEH.. adorabelle? or adorabell

i told alicia maybe she wanted to spell ADORABLE. LOLLL

sigh and she goes around talking like a bimbo and saying: "oh-am-gee u take a ktm back home? u pooooor thing!.. u want my driver to send u back? "
or" oh my family is in britain... (goes on talking about rich family members in britain)

sigh it is bad enough ur name is adorable, to make things worse u go around talking like. lol i dunno.. like an adorabelle! grah! i duno what else to say.

sigh some ppl just get on ur nerves la seriously.

i know!! i think.., i think i know!

am spending the remaining of the month at my aunt's law firm thing, heh no she is not the lawyer. she's the secretary =) and a very stressed out one too.

sigh i shall never be able to work in an office.
seriously, paperwork and wenly don't go together, could never and can never.
i tried.. really!
and i think being organized is a talent.
one i obviously do not have =D

anyway so that has narrowed down my choices of what i i think i shall do in the future.
no desk jobs! hia hia
no sitting at the desk counting, typing, photostatting, email-ing, faxing, printing, etc

so no business, cz ur gonna have to type proposal after proposal right? and all the faxing la, photostatting

and no accounting, that is the most stressed out desk job, ever!

so er what's left is science? but wenly just passed her chemistry with 300/600, praise the Lord! =)

so it's mostly archi? maybe law, maybe not.. what if i cannot read that much?? >.<
* "but think of the money u will make!", says the little voice in her head *

sigh.. at least it's down to two or three.

now im connected! =D

YES I FINALLY GOT MY SIM BACK!! =))))

let the sms marathon begin! =)

were we?

What grace divine what selflessness
That Christ would bear the weight
Our proof is scarred on hands that bled
That we were worth every nail

were we really?
it is amazing that even after He knows what we will do in the future,
no matter how many times we've hurt Him or how many times we've broken his heart
we can still come back and know that His love will still be there for us
how unworthy we really are
to be loved like that
by His everlasting love

and it is not just love we get,
it is also His faith in us, to have faith in Him; His trust in us, to trust Him.

to even get to call Him my Father, my friend
and to know that nothing can take this away from us. nothing in the world

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
romans 8:38-39

who are we to deserve this?

an update! :D

and now i miss the cold air! heh. it felt weird sweating for the first few days here lol, just got used to it.

and so i hid myself from the face of the world for a week to er think and unwind
in other words i was just lazy. and i saw enough new faces to last me another few weeks lol
it was kindof scary heh

oh and i left my simcard in aus.. >.< "soo you lah!" according to my friend, and i have to agree. sigh forced to "fast" my hp for a month or so. it felt really weird at first, being disconnected to the world, but then i got used to it after a week, and was like :" why did i even need a hp back then ??" haha now i dont have to worry about getting mugged, getting mugged again, dropping my hp in the toilet or whether it has enough batt to last me the day. and i think it feels good, being disconnected from the world, having an excuse not to "catch up" after coming back. heh hopefully this feeling will last for awhile longer, at least until my dad has time to get me a new sim lol oh and i have this! :))))
my uncle bought it from perth. now i have sth to do!! :D am starting to get bored
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so here are two random pics of mine :) just to lengthen this post

some random street in perth

i took this cool cool cloud pic! hahah have never seen them clouds like that before

now that one of my best friends has a gf(finally), i can hereby announce that I OFFICIALLY LOST MY KEPONG KAKI! TT

heheh but yea am super duper happy for u! haha but i haven't told her yet, but by the time u read this i probably will be laughing with her somewhere in jln ipoh :D

am waiting for alicia to send me a msg saying that we shall go out for 5oo days of summer tomoro. heh hopefully zayani will be able to excuse herself from her royal duties and come along with us :)

sigh but kirly's phone is upstairs with her.. sigh that means i will have to go get it.
rah! this is why u need ur own phone. eh no, ur own sim heh yea sometimes it's annoyingly irritating not to have ur phone/sim with u

gosh now i know how ppl feel right now when they cannot get u..


lol i think i've had enough of being disconnected from the world...


poor u took a one way trip, i think i miss you now..


I WANT MY SIM BACK! .... >.<

a day at kl hilton :D

and so we took the Canadians shopping at mid valley..

zhi lynn with her walls ice cream advert winning smile :D

kirly and her beloved coconut

jonathan, nicole, zhi cheng, wenly, kirly, zhi lynn, and xiang lim

the bathroom was nice!

the poolside lounge

the pool!nicole, wenly, michael, xiang lim, zhi cheng, zhi lynn and kirly :Dsplash!the happy people

more happy people

the "lifeguards", i dont think the asistant knows how to swim tho. haha!

kirly chillin

drinking the fruit smoothies that costs like 19rm each!! sigh

one particular orange one tasted horrible, i think it had celery in it. but zhi lynn liked it. oh well, that explains her weight. haha

this vry vry shy blackbelt boy

kirly and her dragon fruit drink. at least that's what we think it is

sunseton the way up to the room nyahiahia

watched monsters inc and ordered domino's while nicole put michael to bed. about time to cz he started throwing paper aeroplanes at us. hahah! he taught a young ang moh kid in the pool to kick the water and splash people. bad influence, says nicole lol!
but he is one super cute kid! reminds me abit of ken hu tho, haha.

am super tired right now lol even after waking up at like 11.30???
have to find a sarong to wear this fri. and will have to learn how to tie a tudung for the malaysian night. what do mamak people wear anyway?!??!

sigh i wanted to be the pm's wife. that would be so much easier right? haha oh well
i shall go google mamak outfits now. tata!

of danny guglielmucci and brokenness

danny guglielmucci came to sib to preach!!!

i didnt quite hear them say his name at first, but when he started talking about how he overcame his brokenness and how his son lied about having cancer.. and suddenly i sat up n realized HEY THIS IS DANNY GUGLIELMUCCI!!!!

i didnt bring my bible, brought the bible in the hp. though, so i couldnt bring myself to get him to sign on my hp. i wanted him to sign my bible!!! the blue one!!! lesson learned.

and the sermon that morning was awesome. ps danny talked about his brokenness and how He uses our brokenness to make us unshakable.
and in Him we will always be whole.
and i realized that it was the answer all long to the questions i was asking Him all the months. why did u let this happen to us? why must it be us? why not another house?
and it was like He smacked His answers right at my face that morning at 8.30!!
i was like O.O
is was amazing.
one word: awesome!!!

To the cross I look, to the cross I cling
Of its suffering I do drink
Of its work I do sing

For on it my Savior both bruised and crushed
Showed that God is love
And God is just

At the cross You beckon me
You draw me gently to my knees, and I am
Lost for words, so lost in love,
I’m sweetly broken, wholly surrendered

What a priceless gift, undeserved life
Have I been given
Through Christ crucified

You’ve called me out of death
You’ve called me into life
And I was under Your wrath
Now through the cross I’m reconciled

In awe of the cross I must confess
How wondrous Your redeeming love and
How great is Your faithfulness

-sweetly broken by jeremy riddle

camp was fun! heh really
after camp i ended up with a bunch of new friends in sib and a cell group! =)
it was really a extend ur limits kindof camp
especially the making friends part. its the first time i went to a church camp without the ppl i grew up with

lol i realized how much i missed calvary youth during those 3 days and 2 nights. heh missed the laughter of kimberly la, the commanding voice of vivian! lol how she used to get ready all the stuff and tell us what to do with the computer etc. and elyse! that woman, haha i missed all the crap that comes out from her mouth. and sandy! those walks to shell station to get junk to much on while waiting for our parents. and the cheras gang? daniel, caleb, yuen chun, victoria rebekah, valerie :) and tabby, annabiao and amanda! heh that funny thing. i missed the naughty shermaine too!
sigh and melissa, my bff in church. lol with all her funny bf stories. i miss you! :(

i miss those familiar faces, the comfort of knowing every corner of the church and ppl there.
i didn't realize how important that feeling was until recently, when i was put into a place where suwen n i only knew each other. haha it was kindof scary, and i felt very very insecure. but i found out the ppl were actually really really nice. and genuine.

and that was the whole point of going to camp i guess, i really learnt how to stretch my boundaries, get out of my comfort zone and it didn't fell good one bit at first.
like their theme expanding ur limits. i think mine got expanded, alot.

"Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes." -Isaiah 54:2

and there were the funny moments in camp, the two visiting rats in dorm 2, the whole dorm full of girls were screaming weh. haha imagine 1 screaming girl, multiply the volume by 10 and multiply the number of girls by 20-30, you'll get what i mean. haha and my "stunt" as stephanie calls it.
and so i met drama queen stephanie, elyse-like- siew kuan, nice nice clara and rachel, yinmun's older sister rachel thong! lol , wei chin lookalike -melody she sings too!, and shin yin my cell leader! oh and melissa hehe who reminds me of kimberly in a way.

found out you really gain alot, when u choose to let Him take over and take you over the your limit, to rely on Him for He has no limits.

i miss you ppl!!

from sunday schools to youth. heh

the gang

haha! all the 17 yr old girls

and again!

the youth concerts!

valeris, tsufei, melissa and stephanie

melissa and pamela
the whole group now haha lots of diff from when we were 15???

=)

balloons! and the sea

the nicer ones are in the dslr. sigh will get them tomoro

:)

kuantan was awesome!
hehe had nice carnivals and i even did the sand art thing
the one u peel off the sticker and pour coloured sand onto the thing
super fun
and it was FREE
hehe paid by shuwei's dad's company
so we had free basketball shooting games, dunking games
even hand tattoo and i had a doraemon! hehe
and they got sheila majid to sing for half an hour, guess how much they paid her..

30K!!!!! for only half an hour.. gosh..

i should seriously think of becoming a singer

and the 15 mins of fireworks display
it was super =)

shall post more pics of the Hawaiian night when i get that dslr
and the beach pics! yes they modeled for me

had fun with the balloons and the sea