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it’s one of the eternal ironies surrounding Jesus that those who allowed the exposure of their own weakness, shame, and guilt were the very ones who were afterward able to drink with joy from the fountains of eternal fortunes and love… while those who fought desperately to prop up their own crumbling facades of self-righteousness were in the end reduced to a ridiculous position, raging blindly against love and their own liberation.

-Douglas Kaine McKelvey

got back from camp. the first camp where i can say i learnt so much from the lives of others,

their willingness, their trust they put in, their lives changed forever.

the whole world watches them, their lives and hearts exposed

the embracing of God's love, the embracing of their sins

leading to the living testimony they are of today.

came back with a head full of questions instead of answers

desperation need and hunger they all came back again at the same moment

which brought along the unworthiness, guilt and frustration

so overwhelming to a point where tears started pouring

a call which then turned into a cry

a soft knock on the door which then turned into a loud thump

and it was answered. only with the final fall of the last wall of resistance

peace, love, assurance,

the stillness, and at the same time the violent gush of His presence

it too was overwhelming.

the heart of a servant, pure and holy

"Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat—I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how."

luke 9:57

His scars for our lives

so why not our scars for the lives of others.