dont think i have the right to ask why
but seriously, why..
can't You see she loves You the most, above everything else
the number of kids she led to You, the number of people she cared for
and though it all she still assured us You still Love

so why did You have to let this happen to her can You at least let me know??

maybe this is just a test of faith,
but how long more can she hold on?

sigh i know faith is not about receiving,
but still its so frustrating You know??

All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them. Heb 11:13-16